I have decided to end this blog.
I've had enough. There's no point writing, all I get are ignorant bits of advice from deluded do-gooders. For fuck's sake just get off my back. You, have no fucking idea what it is to me, YOU do not have to wonder every damn day, every damn night, every damn year, year in year out. It's a curse, to just wonder and never know. I will never 'get over it', don't you fucking tell me what I supposedly feel, you pathetic, unenlightened scrabble of plebeians. Don't you dare tell me how I'm supposed to feel and what I'm supposed to do.
How's this - this is my life. I do not belong to your world. I do not belong to this world, with its moronic laws and social shit and crappy rigidity, I am my own. I deserve better than this. I will do any fucking thing I want, you're no one to tell me what I must do. I'll do drugs if I want, in my constitution, it is allowed, I'll drop out of college and work on my idea, in my life, it is perfectly acceptable. You are a sad hemmed-in bunch of people, you can do whatever the hell you want, count me out. I am better than you and above you in every fucking aspect.